Saturday

It’s been a weekend to say the least. I met up with CiCi and Tia to get our nails done this morning. I only got my toes done since bending over is a challenge these days. I was hesitant to go because we still have baby prep to do but after the drama with my sister yesterday, I figured it would be nice to spend some time with my girls and “recalibrate” as my dad says. Afterward, we walked over to a delicious bakery and picked up sweets.. We parted ways just as it was getting hot and then I drove over to the library to meet up with Brian and the boys. He took them to Burger King while they waited for my in-laws to come up. We did some activities at the library for about an hour and then we left to head across town to go to Michael’s. That’s what Gma wanted to do. So we browsed the store, Parker picked out some crafts and Lincoln picked out another ball.  So typical of them both 😊 idk what time it was by that point but me and Beau were getting hungry so we went to eat at Logan’s. That was a nice time and then we headed home for a chill evening. It’s felt like a long couple of days for us. I know it stresses Brian out when I get worked up and I apologized for letting my feelings get the best of me. Especially in front of our children.  I need to be better about not putting myself in these situations where I lack the ability to remain calm. 

As tired as I was; maybe still am. I’m still trying to learn the ins and outs of this online store I set up. Getting my pricing module set up in a way I that I’m not losing money and researching different vendors and fulfillment options. It’s kept me up for hours when I would like to go back to sleep…. Brian’s been super supportive as I navigate the world of e-commerce. Sometimes I wonder if I should have waited to do this but would that have made it look any easier? I don’t see why it would’ve. I’ll be sure to pack my hospital bag today. And the boys’ bags too. That’s low-hanging fruit and something I can check off my list asap.

Monday

After replaying how I handled/expressed my emotions toward my sister over the weekend, it’s really forced me to come to terms with some things about myself and my relationship with her. After seeing photos and videos from her party, I feel that I made the right decision by not going, and glad I stood firm on that despite the grief and headache it caused.

Things to do: Toward the end of every pregnancy, we start reviewing our Will and reviewing after-life plans should something happen to either one of us and particularly me. Given the high maternal mortality rate of Black women in this country it would be grossly irresponsible if we didn’t take time with this planning. 

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